Just by staring at him as he lays down, it makes my heart melt so easily. Looking at how handsome he is, how he looks at me, how he slowly says, “God, I love you.” It makes me melt into pieces. I can’t wait to marry him, to be able to sleep by his side, to be able to wake up to his smile, or even his opened drolling mouth. I really don’t care. I’m just happy I found someone so perfect, so sensitive, so loving, and just fits into my puzzle piece so perfectly. He’s everything I’ve ever wanted, but just adds so much more flare into it. He’s perfect. He’s amazing. He’s handsome, and I could never have believed how lucky I would be to end up being in his arms every day, and soon, every morning, and every night. I love you babe. <3
Happy 7 Months Baby! :) We’re more than half way there! :’) I Love You Soooooooooooooooooooooo Much! ♥
^ That was my post on FaceBook.
I’m just glad to know that after all these months, he was able to stand beside me without making any big mistakes to make me lose my trust in him. Instead he made my trust grow stronger. I’ve never, not once, trusted anyone as much as I trust him. I don’t get jealous when he talks to other girls because I trust him. I get jealous when other girls stare, flirt, and try to talk to him. If he starts the conversation, it’s fine, but if the girl tries to do anything, awe damn! All hell is about to break loose in here! With all jokes aside, I just want my boyfriend to be happy. I’m usually the jealous type, but I know he won’t do anything to hurt me.
For the past 2 years, all he’s ever done is try to please me, try to have me, and try to keep me, but yet for the past 2 years, I’ve denied him his chance. Now, after all that time, our feelings haven’t changed, and it was finally our time to be together, our time to shine together. Being able to see him hold me like he does in this picture, it never made me feel so safe, so secure, so loved, and so beautiful. I’ve never had anyone look at like he does. Whenever he looks at me, I can see it in his eyes how proud he is, how lucky he thinks he is, and how much he loves me. I’ve never seen anyone look at me that way before, as if I were the biggest prize and he was able to get it.
I’m just happy to know that even if we’ve only been together for 7 months we’ve grown so much more as individuals and as a couple. In exactly 2 months, I’ll be turning 18, and I can’t wait to finally be able to hold him in my arms, and say we’re finally adults, and babe, I can’t wait to walk down the aisle into your arms. You’re more than my best friend, you’re me. I love you and spending the rest of my life with you is worth every moment we weren’t able to spend together. I love you, forever, always, eternity, and everything in between. :)
I love you Yogi. ^^*
The beauty of regret, choices, and a future. I regret choosing you, but I made a choice to choose him and now, he’s my future. My finacee. :3 <3
I didn’t exactly make a resolution, mostly because I know in the end I’ll fail to fulfill it. Anyway, my boyfriend and I have decided to start working out. I’ve gained a lot of pounds from work and school, surprisingly. I tend to eat a lot more when I’m stressed. Therefore, I’m going to try to begin working out again to get the body I had 6 months ago. I really loved that body.
I remember him telling me, “If you want that body, you have to maintain it.” It sucks that I couldn’t because school and work had me so busy and so stressed that all I ever wanted to do was eat then sleep. Such a terrible combination, but it’s time to change all of time. Time to get my 4 pack abs back.~ Watch me succeed, or fail, whichever hits me first.
He’s my motivation & music will push me to my dreams.~
Happy 18th Birthday Babe! :)
Within the two years that I’ve known you, this would be the first time I spend your birthday with you. I’m glad that I was able to get the chance to even be with you. So babe, happy birthday. :)
I just wanted to tell you that I’m more than glad to have you all for myself, as selfish as it may all sound. I’ve waited so long, maybe not long enough, for someone like you to finally come along. Someone so understanding, loving, caring, tough, funny, cute, generous, loyal, and kind. You’re literally everything I have ever wished for. A simple “I love you” is never enough for me to show it.
Now that you’re finally 18, I hope that we have even more time to spend together. I hope you love the gifts I got you, and the gifts I made myself. I hope that these little gestures of love will show you just about how much you really mean to me. The world was said to end just a few days ago, if it did, all I know is that I’m glad to have had my fair share of time with someone like you.
Even after all the pain and suffering we were put through, everything we put each other through, I’m glad to know we hung on. I’m glad to know that we never, not once, lost the love we had for each other that some time ago. If we had, I’d probably be more lost than ever.
Thank you, for taking the step to talk to me. For giving me a simple “Hello, can we start over?” I’m so thankful for the strength you had in yourself, if you hadn’t we’d be nowhere near where we are now. Look at that, almost 6 months.
In just a mere 5 days, we’ll hit the mark of 6 months. Half a year has already gone by, and graduation is just a few months ahead. The month of graduation would be our 1st Anniversary. I’m happy to know that on my graduation day, I’ll have my loving and ever so supporting boyfriend to be there staring at me with a smile on his face to see how far we’ve both gone. As the sad truth begins to face us, I’m still quite terrified of my future after high school, but I’m excited because I’ll always have you right beside me to teach me where to go, to help me stand when I fall, and to help me find the right direction.
Within 18 years of breathing and existance, I’m very happy to announce that I’m finally pregnant. LOL! No, I’m kidding. Hope I didn’t give you a heart attack. ;~; Babe, I don’t care if we end up having kids early, or late. It doesn’t matter, as long as I’m happy, you’re happy, and we’re together.
I want to apologize for all my mood swings, all my anger issues, all my irritability. I wish I knew how to push them aside. I apologize for ever making you feel guilty. I hope you understand where I’m coming from. And so, this is it. Baby, I love you. Happy Birthday. :)
Always,
Charlene Kate Nicholas Carreon. ♥
Hehehehehe! Happy Birthday Baby. :3
It’s been a while since I’ve actually put any writing up. I’m just glad to know that things have been great for myself over the past 6 months. It’s nice to know that for once, everything is going right. I’m glad that this Christmas season, I’ll have my boyfriend at my side. That the eve of Christmas, his birthday, I get to be with him. I actually get to be the first person, IN PERSON, to say happy birthday, give him a kiss, hand him his gift, and be able to share his first smile after being 18. In just 3 days, my boyfriend will finally be 18. He’ll finally be an adult. As for myself, I still have to wait 3 more months. Either way, I’m glad to know that the night of my birthday, I get to spend it with him, sleep by his side & hug him as I sleep, just like he will to me, on his birthday. I’m glad to know that I’ve finally found someone worth fighting for, worth singing for, worth keeping my education for, worth everything for. I’m glad to know that he pushes me to be better, to be stronger, to be the best I can be. I’m glad to know that I can finally say, I got what I wanted for Christmas, YOU. :) Oh gosh, I’m so cheesy. I’m glad to know I can be myself around him. To be able to act like a total idiot and yet have him act just the same is a great feeling. We’re both willing to burp, fart, change, shower, & do the most weirdest things with each other. We’re not scared to hide anything. We’re completely honest with each other. Heck I can even play Nurse on him. :3 He’s loving and he’s the best I’ve ever had. I can’t believe I was able to stumble upon a guy as perfect as him. How he always cares for me, looks out for me, teaches me to fight incase he isn’t around. Or even just grapple & mess around with him. He makes me feel like a guy. I don’t have to act girly, I don’t have to act a different way rather than being myself. He makes me smile even when I cry. I’m just glad to know that I’ve found myself with someone I can in my future. Having 2 beautiful kids with cute dark brown hair & eyes, bright smiles and loving hearts. Livane & Lifea. Oh, dear. I’m not ready for you two yet. XD But still, it doesn’t matter. :3 I’d love them nonetheless. Dear god, thank you for making this year the best, & for giving me the best. I’m glad to know you’ve finally answered my question, my cry. & I thank you for giving me the worst to test me for the best. :) Thank you, really. Merry Christmas. :) <3
Did my mother seriously just tell me that she likes my douchebag ex more than my current boyfriend? I seriously have no fucking respect for you now. Jesus mother fucking Christ. First off, your parking is so fucking irritating! You do NOT own the damn drive way! Just because you have a fucking new (second hand) car, doesn’t mean you can park however you want. If you continue parking like that, I will fucking hit you. I don’t fucking give a shit. Secondly, the least you can do when I show you my boyfriend’s picture, is say, “Oh, it looks nice.”, instead of saying straight up, “I like Kevin more.” What the fuck is wrong with you? I have been with Alvin for 5 months now, and all you can ever fucking talk about is Kevin this Kevin that. If you fucking like him so much, YOU FUCKING DATE HIM. I’M SURE HE’LL LOVE THAT. I fucking hate that douchebag dick horny ass selfish mother fucker. All he ever did was fucking flirt with everyone. He fucking cheated on me. AND he’s so fucking selfish. If he can’t have me, no one can. YOU FUCKING TOLD ME YOURSELF THAT YOU HATED HIM BECAUSE HE’S A MAMA’S BOY. What the fuck happened to that?! Honestly, you’re changing, and NOT for the better. You’re like my best friend, but I hate your fucking guts. You’re turning into that mother fucker instead of being yourself. I don’t fucking understand what’s wrong with you. Why do you think I rebel so much?
Honestly, I love Alvin. NOTHING can change that. Not you, not that douchebag, not my friends, not my exs, not even GOD. I don’t give a shit. I love Alvin. He has done NOTHING, but stay by my side no matter the bullshit I put him through. He makes me laugh, and if he makes me cry, he cries himself and he apologizes on the spot. He doesn’t like to argue. He’s strong and caring. He’s selfless and he means the world to me. He’s my best friend, my other half, my soul-mate. He’s everything I could ever ask for. He made me smile when no one else could. He listened to me when no one would even care to smile at me or ask what’s wrong. He’s the only person I can never lie to. He buys me things even when I don’t want him to. He surprises me all the time, and they always bring me to tears, or smile from ear to ear. He does everything in his power to make me and everyone else happy, aside from himself. He makes me blush without having to try. Being himself is the cutest thing possible. He helps me with everything. He does everything in his power to see me and I don’t even have to ask. He never gets mad at me. He always tries to find a way to see and talk to me. He and I have EVERYTHING IN COMMON. He will ALWAYS be better than anyone I have ever met, he has no flaws, all he is, is complete perfection. Everything I could ever ask and wish for in a man, and so much more, but most of all, the thing I love about him the most, he listens to me. We play video games together. We horseplay all the time. He doesn’t care about what I like and don’t like, he supports me 100% of every minute in everyday. He’s my best friend, and I’m his. I’ve known him for almost 3 years. The first time I fell in love with him, June 2010, I knew my heart found the right person. I know it was wrong of me to choose so otherwise. I fell in love with him a second time, June 2011 and I knew it was something I can never regret, and that kiss sealed my heart. And now that I have him for the third time, nothing and I mean NOTHING will ever make me leave him. Not you, not anyone. He’s the best person in the world, and having him as a boyfriend is a dream come true. Having him as a husband, now that is heaven on Earth. <3 :) I love you baby, always remember that. :) My love for you shines brighter than the sun and the moon’s light clashing together. <3 :) My heart chases after you like a modified police car chasing a sports car on the run. :) & My mind will kill anyone that interferes with us like the zombies you & I face whenever we play Black Ops 2. :)
Gotta love the past two weeks. ;3 But this weekend finished it all off great. :) For the past 2 weeks, I saw him EVERYDAY.
First picture, is obvious, it’s my license. :D I finally got it! I got it Friday morning. :3 It took me about 2 years to get it. 6 months on my permit, 3 months to wait for my road test & got my intermediate, one year and a day to get my FULL License. :DDD SOOOO happy!
Second picture, was last night, which we went to watch SkyFall, it was awesome, but we weren’t exactly paying attention. First, I went to his house instead of work, as usual. We played Black Ops 2, which we’ve been doing everyday since he got it last week Saturday. I’m getting better, & he made me want to get a PS3. ><” Anywho, I was at his house from 9-1, & then we went home. My mom made food, so we ate here. Around 3:30, we went to the mall to buy tickets for SkyFall, we were a little bit early, so we went to walk around. My boyfriend noticed that I needed a new wallet so we went to buy me one. When he took out his wallet, it was well beaten up too, so we decided to get matching Nixon wallets. :D So happy! After so, we went into the theater to watch the movie, which we played around instead of watched. Ate dinner, then went home. :3
Third picture happened today. I woke up around 8, got ready and picked him up around 9:45. We went to watch Breaking Dawn Part 2, which was actually not bad at all. I hated it because it almost made me cry. ;~; Anywho, he told me to go check GameStop for the PS3’s so that I knew how much to save up. It ended up being 250 for a 160GB. ;~; I almost cried. While I was looking at the expensive prices, he went somewhere to buy me something. He came to get me, then ended up leaving to get something else (the necklaces). I waited for him upstairs infront of Tropical T, he gave me a Macy’s bag and inside were the necklaces. He made me turn around, took out a box, bent down on one knee, and smiled. I was sooo surprised that I walked away instead of saying anything. He walked towards me and said, “You never gave me an answer”, and smiled. I hugged him and whispered, “Yes!” I took the ring from his hand, and told him to put it in my bag, we went to buy food then sat down and ate. After so, we went home and talked for awhile, then we went down to the park. I wanted to swing, so we did. Then we went on the seasaw. We’ve always wanted to play in the rain and I notice it was about to, so we drove back home. When we got home, I told him to take off his shoes and we danced, kissed, and played around in the rain. After then, we ended up taking a shower, got ready, and I dropped him home. :)
BEST 2 WEEKS, EVER. <3
Baby, I’m looking forward to spending my life with you, no doubt about it. :)
Next up, Thursday, 5th monthsary & a trip to Under Water World! :) :D
